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  1. Hot Mess

I've got a large circle of friends and family, and by assumption, fans who battle depression. I struggle with it myself, and I've seen first hand how much the past year has made things so much worse.

Between the isolation, the loss of control, the doubts and fear (pick your particular brand, there's plenty to go around lately), it's easy for someone with even mild depression to become overwhelmed.

Teen suicide is on the rise, and I wrote this to shine a spotlight on an issue that is usually left tucked away until it's much too late. If you're feeling overwhelmed, please reach out. I know it's hard. Sometimes reaching for a lifeline is harder than sinking beneath the waves but please, please, get help.

You are loved, you are wanted, and you are special. you are incredible, and the world would never be the same without you. Believe it. Repeat that to yourself as often as you have to, every morning, every night, shout it from the rooftops. Do it until that inner voice is overwhelmed and starts cheering it right along with you.

Lyrics

Some days it's hard just to get up, brave face. go through the motions. Get home, and lock myself in. Shut down, it all falls apart again. Oh oh, falls apart again, and again.

Folks say just do the small stuff, then it won't pile up. They don't get that the small stuff's mountain's falling down on me, and no one's there to hear me scream.

Depressed, I'm a hot mess, held together most days by a thin mask and a lot of prayers. I'm a hot mess, but no one cares or so it seems, yeah, I'm a hot mess.

That inner voice keeps talking 'bout things not gone wrong yet, finding ways to screw them up best, you shout no, it screams hell yes

Depressed, I'm a hot mess, held together most days by a thin mask and a lot of prayers. I'm a hot mess but no one sees or so it seems, yeah I'm a hot mess.

Here comes another panic attack, got to try to hold together while the boss walks by. Too many trips to the restroom to hide, will they start to ask questions, will they wonder why?

Depressed, I'm a hot mess, held together most days by a thin mask and a lot of prayers. I'm a hot mess, but no one sees, or so it seems, yeah I'm a hot mess please someone see me.

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