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  1. More Than This

This one was a direct inspiration from my phone popping up a little hey, you've walked x% less steps this month than last month, and here's how it compares month by month for the past 12 months.

If you haven't heard, at the end of September, I got hit with a whammy of a balance problem that remains unresolved, and only diagnosed in the vaguest of generalizations. I had to resort to a cane to get through my day and take frequent breaks. By the end of October it had gotten so bad that I couldn't continue to work. By the end of January I had to switch to a walker, and even with that aid I am very close to falling over at the best of times. No almost about it at on my bad days.

Anyway, enough back story. Seeing my step counter go from 15-20k a day to 15-100 steps a day by the end of January, and knowing those were more like tentative "is this ice thick enough to hold my weight" kind of steps than confident strides or jumping around a stage it hit like a gut punch.

I'm not one to take things lying down though, and I've been making worst case plans. What can I do if I con't fully recover, what can I do if I con't get to x-point, or y or z. I'm learning new skills, writing new songs, and trying like hell to find new ways to keep going.

Recording Note:
Sorry for a few rough line deliveries and some background noise. Recording from the bed has it's drawbacks, and it's a brain fog day. I was stumbling over the lines alot. Gave up on trying to get it right and went with close enough. I'll work on right when I'm in a studio later.

Lyrics

Ever had your tragedy summed up, pinned down to the moment it went wrong. A little highlight to twist that knife in, you can't help but read it and weep, yeah.

Had to face that uphill battle, deck stacked against you, but you can't cash out. Double down with the cards you're dealt. Still tried to make it a winning hand.

This was never the plan, you were meant for so much more. Will you dwell on the past, or make a change for a better tomorrow? This was never the plan, you were meant for so much more, Will you just fade away, or make a stand and blaze a trail.

I know that it's never easy, coming back from your hundredth neck deep. Life says you should just learn to sink, that's never been your kind of takeaway

This was never the plan, you were meant for so much more. Will you dwell on the past or make a change for a better tomorrow? This was never the plan, you were meant for so much more. Will you just fade away, or make a stand and blaze a trail?

Maybe this time the pieces will fall into place. You're being forged into something stronger, someone who'll light the way.

Well this could be the plan, you could be so much more. Don't dwell on what you've lost, prepare to blaze that trail.

New song demos will be added here throughout the month of February.  

Check back often to keep tabs on my progress, cheer me on, and listen to my news song creations.